Beautiful wisdom

beautiful daughter

I remember the day you came to me

like it was yesterday

like it was an idea that was bigger than me

you scared me, trapped behind my pelvis

like waves crashing into rock or

rocks crashing into pain

the oxygen mask/the fear

and then when we had already thought c-section?  i cant do this

cant someone else carry this pain for me?

like a cornered bird fluttering against the glass

this was the time your father asked me not to cry out

but I did cry

in shear relief and joy and more joy and more joy

beautiful wisdom

girl.