I did not want to write about this.

Words matter

And the absence of them matters as well.

Mark 13:14 KJV
[14] But when ye shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, standing where it ought not, (let him that readeth understand,) then let them that be in Judaea flee to the mountains:

Secular voices on the internet are quick to point out that prenatal testing only provides information on biological sex.

As with any unborn child, their promise and potential and ability to change the world can only be determined by giving them the power to live.

Reproductive justice? Not just about choice?

Abortion is never “justice”

Bind up the brokenhearted and set the captive free

https://www.gotquestions.org/Bible-verses-about-hell.html

Matthew 8:28-34 KJV
[28] And when he was come to the other side into the country of the Gergesenes, there met him two possessed with devils, coming out of the tombs, exceeding fierce, so that no man might pass by that way. [29] And, behold, they cried out, saying, What have we to do with thee, Jesus, thou Son of God? art thou come hither to torment us before the time? [30] And there was a good way off from them an herd of many swine feeding. [31] So the devils besought him, saying, If thou cast us out, suffer us to go away into the herd of swine. [32] And he said unto them, Go. And when they were come out, they went into the herd of swine: and, behold, the whole herd of swine ran violently down a steep place into the sea, and perished in the waters. [33] And they that kept them fled, and went their ways into the city, and told every thing, and what was befallen to the possessed of the devils. [34] And, behold, the whole city came out to meet Jesus: and when they saw him, they besought him that he would depart out of their coasts.

I have been praying for a baby. I have old-dog-induced insomnia. She wakes me up at 4 am and then I pray.

Think and pray

Acknowledge the tug-of-war between what is seen (“it will take a miracle”)

And what is unseen

Jesus knows the names and social security numbers for all the tardigrades that have ever lived

He counts the stars as he speaks them into being

He magnifies both faith and prayer

I think about the newborn child

(miraculous already)

While Jesus tells one of his math parables—

Matthew 18:11-14 KJV
[11] For the Son of man is come to save that which was lost. [12] How think ye? if a man have an hundred sheep, and one of them be gone astray, doth he not leave the ninety and nine, and goeth into the mountains, and seeketh that which is gone astray? [13] And if so be that he find it, verily I say unto you, he rejoiceth more of that sheep, than of the ninety and nine which went not astray. [14] Even so it is not the will of your Father which is in heaven, that one of these little ones should perish.

The number of stars in the universe denies our ability to comprehend

He loves that baby

And leaves sextillion stars behind to turn

“Danger” into “Garden”

For one baby

For all of them.

https://narnia.fandom.com/wiki/Letitia_Ketterley

The girls waterfall read as Jadis demands a chariot, Andrew begins to realize he is out of his depths, and Aunt Letty utters one of the greatest rebukes in fictional Christendom.

Lewis, blessedly, does not ship his darlings and allows Letty to be spared by her own modest industry. She lands on a mattress she was mending.

His voice is clear in the kitchen, as is the Aslan he introduced us all to.

I aspire to be like Letty. A stalwart soul, fending off harm with stout heart and no nonsense.

I read the last one to her and she said write another one

As she counted the fruit (mostly apples) from “Honey Many”

One could say that the love and justice remain

In a box of fruit sent from a long way off

When every second, every moment, every minute-hour-day-spiral of the earth around this lovely sun

Slingshots is closer

To Home.

I have a beloved child

Who likes to say things like

But why? and it isn’t fair!

she reminds me of me

Snarking at God when

My little world is not all He sees

And his answers are

“Love” and “Justice/just Us”

Respectively.