Love Letters

When I was in college I loved a boy who was very lovable but just wanted to be friends.

I wrote him a letter about elephants which seemed engaging at the time because I was so young, but now seems to have been cribbed from the movie Green Card.

Oh well, so much for originality.

Now that I am older, I have original stories, but the Boy-i-love calls stars into being and sees into my soul, what is the point of words and letters?

What can I possibly say that he doesn’t already…know…

(Psalm 139:3-4 KJV
[3] Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. [4] For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether.)

(This screenshot I have of a child I want to raise) I would tell him that I am lost without him

I would tell him I will keep calling the number to get her to me

I will tell him I cannot stop looking for him

Like David in Ps 139, like the Shula…Shuna…mite woman

Here is my most interesting thing—I constantly long to see you

Face-to-face at last

Song of Songs 3:2-3 KJV
[2] I will rise now, and go about the city in the streets, and in the broad ways I will seek him whom my soul loveth: I sought him, but I found him not. [3] The watchmen that go about the city found me: to whom I said, Saw ye him whom my soul loveth?

The 7 “I Am”s

Bread! Light! Door! Good..Shepherd! Resurrection and the Life!

The Way…the Truth…the Life!!

The Vine!

The bread, the light…the…door! Shepherd! Resurrection and life! Way-truth-life-

Vine.

Once there was a loaf of bread in a lighted room where the door opened and a shepherd walked in

He said

I am the resurrection life

Way truth life

Vine

He is the bread of life

He is the light of the world

He is the door of the sheep

He is the good shepherd

He is the resurrection and the life

The way the truth the life

The true vine

Remember…

Girl, remember

What it means to be “finished”

The day men ringed around the young man

Who had just finished a longish sermon

And crushed him to death

Rock by rock

Man by man

His King had already made his own mysterious pronouncement—

It is finished

The anger flows through my veins, the helplessness of ordinary losses

Nothing like a martyr’s death

And yet in both cases the mysterious sentence hangs over the grief, anger, loss and unanswered questions

It is finished

Until the sky opens wide for each of us in relief or judgment

Hope your name will be changed

Pray your sins will be forgiven

And you will know how

To define both “finished” and “rock”

In his Word,

Ours are not enough

Psalm 22:29-31 KJV
[29] All they that be fat upon earth shall eat and worship: all they that go down to the dust shall bow before him: and none can keep alive his own soul. [30] A seed shall serve him; it shall be accounted to the Lord for a generation. [31] They shall come, and shall declare his righteousness unto a people that shall be born, that he hath done this.

Exposing the lie

For the past 50 years or more our culture has been dominated by a lie that can be encapsulated by “between a woman and her doctor.”

This phrase is a subset of a bigger “right to privacy” ethos in law and medical ethics which has led to a wide range of repercussions.

But what if there was no privacy in the discussion and what if the medical decision was made by aesthetic consensus rather than some other more anchoring standard of care?

I am referring to two recent studies that involved asking medical students (of both genders) to view and rate women’s chests.

Why was this necessary? Ostensibly for plastic surgery.

Ladies, please be advised, when people start photographing, rating, and categorizing your briskets, you may need to ask yourself whether those people are

Healers or pit masters.

“I can’t talk now…”

I have a list in my head of alarming things that should be said over and over and over again—

Yeshua means God saves

Cry out to him wherever and whenever you can

Don’t go with strangers

Don’t go to bars at all

But if you do go, don’t go alone

Always tell your person where you are and where you are going

Because there are wolves everywhere and they are not the worst monsters among us

And if real words seem to stop working then just press the button on the dashboard console

Let the computer send the last message for you—

I can’t talk right now, I am driving my Pathfinder

Who gives this woman?

I begin to doubt the integrity of the prayers when there are small words inserted to create distance between the woman herself, the gossamer tendrils of law and mercy, and the gaping maw of life-limiting-six-months.

You knew her, right?

The beautiful love story and the broken loneliness?

The way two old people can alarm their neighbors by arguing in the yard?

The steep front steps?

The cartoonishly lovable cat?

She spoke clearly about the dismay she felt decades ago as she watched her own mother sink

Into the loss of who she was.

A person is worth more

Than the sum of all

They could ever possibly possess

But not what can be lost or stolen

When we all cease

To become human in our hearts

10 Cities

The light is falling which means that as the short blue explosions of light subside, the longer, slower pinks and yellows and reds flood

The sky, the man-made lake, and the little girl who looks with every fiber of her being for Beauty in the form of a Friend

Where is he? Her arms and legs geometric as she peers towards the fence, the friend she has missed, like a lost brother, all these years in exile

Your rod and your staff will comfort me

the bamboo stick fished from the river in her hand as her older sister recounts the story of Aaron (and Moses) casting down a rod only to see if transformed into a snake and a snake that eats the snakes of all who oppose them!

“I wish I could turn a staff into a snake!” She exclaims with envy. As though this were a thing little girls did with prophetic regularity.

I tell her she should aim to just practice treating Jesus like a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Talk then listen

Listen then talk

Marvel at what happens when God gives you

Treasure in the field

As light falls

Into night