Love Letters

Dearest,

You remember better than I do the letter I once wrote to the justletsbefriendsboy.

Not like you—so far out of my league—worlds wake at the sound of your voice.

I want to squish your check sideways and demand your attention like the petulant but well-meaning child I am and love—

Grandma!! Look!

How does one grasp the attention of the Eternal Beloved?

Surprisingly easily because you love us so.

A really good listener

I want more like Christmas morning

Waiting for your voice

In the House,

Love.

I teeter, I wobble

Never having impeccable balance

I swing between hope and chaos

One part of me veering toward extremes strangely reminiscent of sci-fi movies and teen melodrama—

Attempt to reproduce the metaphysical places that come to you in your dreams

Buy all the thrift store wedding dresses and parade about in them!

Become a true cave or island dweller…

I have become obsessive about the time

In Diomedes (big and little)

Howland and Baker Islands

He brings me rain to ease my heartbreak

And stories he has told with aplomb for millennia

A persistent widow

A mustard tree

A cry that goes out at midnight

And all those angels

Poised, always poised

To bring home those he loves

Fifty-fifty

The deep blue and slivery moon

And the bearded woman

Shave then

bathe their cats

Affix bowties to all

Retrieve each

shimmery dress from the closet of

Yesterday-today-forever

Inventory chores

Left

Undone in the house

In the ambiguous darkness just short of

Midnight

Matthew 25:13 KJV
[13] Watch therefore, for ye know neither the day nor the hour wherein the Son of man cometh.

When we die

https://www.aol.com/entertainment/robert-redford-waited-vatican-wednesday-160521161.html

There is a history of pairs of famous people dying on the same day. Charlie Kirk did not die on the same day as Robert Redford, but the pairing in time still seems relevant.

Charlie trusted in Jesus for his eternity.

He died a violent, untimely death.

Redford trusted nature and Playboy and said that what we have in this life is all there is. He lived a long life and died of old age without any controversial epithets.

The contrast is notable and tragic.

I am with Charlie.

Give me Jesus.

Prayers for Justice and Healing

2 Corinthians 2:12-17 NIV
[12] Now when I went to Troas to preach the gospel of Christ and found that the Lord had opened a door for me, [13] I still had no peace of mind, because I did not find my brother Titus there. So I said goodbye to them and went on to Macedonia. [14] But thanks be to God, who always leads us as captives in Christ’s triumphal procession and uses us to spread the aroma of the knowledge of him everywhere. [15] For we are to God the pleasing aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. [16] To the one we are an aroma that brings death; to the other, an aroma that brings life. And who is equal to such a task? [17] Unlike so many, we do not peddle the word of God for profit. On the contrary, in Christ we speak before God with sincerity, as those sent from God.