his button-down shirt matched the color of his gun and his ten-gallon hat matched his jeans as he brandished his weapon with bravado in the the store-of-lost-things on the corner of the city named for the patron saint of them, poor Native Americans, at some point the irony of namesakes and saints’ days and lost things must have haunted them the way it haunts me as the Nissan with the cat inside next to the bustling night school faces its own lost place on the street named for flowers where a brown bottle will spread its broken pieces like water pooled on the edge of the sidewalk, so close to art, so close to lost on the very edge of the world
jeop•ard•y
orgin: Old French, ieu parti (evenly) divided game
ME- iuparti
The term was originally used in chess or other games to denote a problem, or position in which the chances of winning or losing were evenly balanced, hence-
“A dangerous situation”
From “jeu”-a game which derived from Latin “jest” see “joke” and “divide”
Taboos
200. What common crime against children is universally under-reported?
400. What is the FBI definition for rape?
600. What is Planned Parenthood’s policy on rape and incest victims?
800. What constitutes “consent?”
1000. What happens to fetal remains in rape and incest situations?
Famous Rape Survivors
200. Who is Jane Fonda?
400. Who is Oprah Winfrey?
600. Who is Tim Roth?
800. Who is Queen Latifa?
1000. Who is Lady Gaga?
Rape Victims in History
200. Who was Joan of Arc?
400. Who was Elizabeth I?
600. Who was Virginia Woolf?
800. Who was Lawrence of Arabia?
1000. Who is Maya Angelou?
Feminism and abortion
200. What country has the highest number of gender-selective abortions?
400. What cultural biases enable gender-selective abortion?
600. What medical device is used to determine the gender of fetuses?
800. When is the gender of an unborn child visible?
1000. What are some common social problems associated with sex-selective abortion?
Current Events
200. What famous NYC newspaper reported on a 10 year old incest victim in India?
400. What famous British news agency reported on an Indian rape victim seeking a late-term abortion?
600. What is the common redress for incest survivors in India?
800. What state did the 10 year old incest and rape survivor hail from in northern India?
1000. What survivor counseling, services, and support can a 10 year old Indian rape victim expect from local and national governments?
Final Jeopardy
What are common stereotypes, misconceptions, and prejudices perpetuated in general which hinder the prosecution of sexual predators and marginalize their victims?
Mum’s Day 1998
they will say focus on the positive they will say at least you gave her a good beginning they will say we have 25 families waiting, better than you like this is some kind of beauty pageant for adoptive families?
…which was a weird lie of sorts…maybe there were 25 families …maybe 5000…in the end it was only necessary to know that it was never about the hypothetical 25, always about the avaricious pair, or pairs, -on-the-ark-come-two-by-two pairs of caseworkers, pairs of administrators, pairs of lawyers, pairs of accountants, coupling, uncoupling back and forth around a central lie, a few broken laws, and Entropy, the Mother-god, chained to the loss chained to the chaos of the loss…of her babies.
What was it
what was it, mute, inanimate object perched on the counter in the messy late-night kitchen as she finally sweeps up the spilled beans, tosses them out into the night, contemplates both what usually lurks there and if they will grow, sprout, tangle up into vines, vines to block the sun, spin to the clouds where the approximate-rhythmic giant dwells, mocking science, mocking long-dead Darwin, Glutton-clubbing, maggot-and-squirrel devouring Darwin whose mortal life has coiled to dust but whose immortal one is hot, vivid, fierce
Survival of the fittest…
Meerschaum Rings in an inky sky
The last ember in this summer fire so resembles the unblinking moon tonight a slitted serpent’s eye obscured behind smoke-ring clouds spun from the hookah pipe of a caterpillar long-gone-butterfly, God of flight pulling forth a clear phonology from nightingales who form signal fires with words of love and danger for what is in the night.
Televising the Language of Sexual Aggression
Years ago I believed the cotton-candy fiction that it was enough for incest survivors, child abuse victims, and rape victims to just tell someone your story.
After 8 years of practicing this advice on behalf of the victims of intimate crime, I can say it is not enough.
If you tell your story, you will be marginalized, ostracized, judged.
If you tell your story, little or nothing will happen to your abuser.
If you tell your story, you still might not be able to stop the abuse…
…ostensibly because it is more fiscally and emotionally economical to ignore abuse than to intervene.
Which is why the recent statements made by American celebrities Stephen Colbert and Bill Maher (about oral sex and incest respectively) are all the more transgressive.
In making these comments both men display a complete disregard for the position of sex crime survivors and perpetuate the connection between anger and rape culture.
Many of us were denied consent in this process. We did not watch either show but were nonetheless exposed without consent to the barrage of media with explicit descriptions of comments laced with both anger and intent to shock and offend.
Shock is a function of trauma. Our minds buffer traumatic events with shock. When we cease to be shocked by what is trauma-inducing, we allow these things to become commonplace, accepted.
Yet it is categorically unacceptable for men of power and privilege to use their position in front of a national audience to transmit language that is verbally abusive and supportive of rape culture.
I understand that both Colbert and Maher disqualified protective language they would have extended to Clinton or Obama (and their daughters) because anger now fuels their discourse on Trump.
However in the process they have exposed a frat-boy, locker room mentality which not only has no place in intelligent dissent, it automatically signals to the already marginalized and disenfranchised victim of sexual crime-“you are not safe here.”
And that is shocking…or it should be.
Occam’s Holster
I am pretty sure oral sex has been a topic of word-slinging for thousands of years.
In order to write this I inventoried some of the times when it seems to have risen to the point of national political upheaval, and some examples emerged fast-
- The Washington Post editor who chose to nickname the Watergate informant Deep Throat after a disturbingly famous film of the same name.
- The lopsided “affair” between a young intern and William Jefferson Clinton.
- Recent, renewed accusations against the mayor of Seattle concerning the sexual abuse of at-risk teenagers who are now fully articulate adult men….
Just to name a few.
Which raises some thorny questions.
Would Colbert have said the victim of the Oval Office hook-up was a holster for a member? Would he have said the same about Bill’s spouse? Or other world leaders?
I doubt it.
I admit that I simply won’t google whether the term Mr. Colbert used for oral sex was cobbled together by him or whether it was a lexical entity prior to all of this.
I kinda don’t want to know.
But what I do want to know is whether anyone has discussed all the linguistic implications of what Colbert said.
What we know from context is-
- He was angry
- He was not afraid to drag sign language users, primates, and concussion victims into the list of insults
- Context clues as well as the purely derogatory “only thing good for” component of the reference to oral sex suggests non-consensual sexual contact more than a relationship of mutual affection between consenting adults
“Non-consensual” at least for those of us who had to read it in the morning paper.
Which is why I write. I don’t have a problem with Colbert expressing his anger toward the President or disagreeing with him. I have a problem with Colbert’s utter and complete insensitivity to countless sexual assault survivors of all ages and genders who have ever been forced into what Colbert describes…as a joke?
He doesn’t seem to have considered how his obscene and dehumanizing language about a power-uneven and sometimes non-consensual sex act might sound to any rape or sexual abuse survivor.
That, coupled with earlier sexually and racially charged terms for Asian Americans suggests Colbert may share the very same white-man-locker-room entitlement he claims to abhor in the President.
There are clearly many ways to perpetuate a rape-tolerant ethos. I just wish Colbert hadn’t shown us how.
A lexicon for grief
how many words for snow
how many words for rice or rain or storms
We humans and our specificity
Yet no words for listening
Hearing you
Being there, holding on, loving you
Looking into….
Oops! Already well into
Greeting card territory
When what a body needs is those…those
Ladies in the black organza
Wailing in the streets.
Where are they? When we need them so?
All those things we need them to
Do
Be
Say, not say, feel
a new vocabulary
Esperanto for grievers
Words for here I am with you (ret)
Just being here for you (ghurt)
You are not alone (hyop)
Breathing here with you (fppt…)
There are empty rooms and rooms for more
Make more. More for all the ways
I will be with you in silence
Letters strung together for the careful listener
Unspoken I am with you
Through the storm.
Stories small pebbly things
The previous night mother had attempted to make tea. Tea then coffee, that was the plan. In the little pre-packaged pouches provided by hotel concessions.
Upon inspection mother noted two nay, three things:
Advancing, almost marine rust on the warming plate
Water in the well from some previous occupant of the room
No heat, no perk
So she reported it to the desk clerk, all the while noting the following-
A previous hotel encounter wherein a woman of rapidly advancing years has chided the desk clerk for a similarly broken coffee maker.
And the likelihood that somewhere, somehow, the night shift clerk possessed a hog, of the Harley-Davidson, not Charlotte’s Web variety.
He said they were all out of fresh coffee makers.
He said he would transmit her request for a new one to the day guy.
Who ended up being a woman of short stature.
Who said she would fetch a tall person to fetch a new one from a high shelf.
This leaving mother to picture the places in the hotel with high shelves and coffee makers
…as she returned to her room.
And talked to her lovely and prepossessing daughter approximately thus:
I was surprised you did not come to breakfast.
Well, in truth, it was because I knew you would bring back the good stuff.
I wanted you to come down because there was a family next to us. Grandparents, a dad discussing his absent son who was allowed to drive down on the highway.
He described the process the way you might describe throwing a child into deep water in order to swim–“eventually he stopped weaving and wobbling”-which of course makes one wonder about when he was “weaving and wobbling.”
Then the father called his son to breakfast-whisp of a boy with hair like a tornado-whoosh!
Knock on the door.
Daughter opens it to a young man, tall, dark, and handsome, like a prince in a fairy tale, only coffee maker instead of glass slipper.
He proffers the box, offers to install it. Mother says she can manage, not realizing that he is a prince, the door is a portal and that all along the coffee makers had carefully conspired to bring these two together.
To my esteemed humanist friend,
I confess
I was angry at first
At real atrocities ignored and
fictions so promiscuously embraced
But then I thought heck
So what if she mixes her metaphors? Or fails to tally the cost
Of a world unmoored by love?
Instead
I have this one
Abiding, hypothetical
Question-
Haven’t you ever been afraid that this triune omnipotent
God of love
Might be just like
Dustin Hoffman in the penultimate
scene of The Graduate?
Pounding on the outside
(yes, the outside)
of the church, calling your name as you
Marry the wrong guy?
And if you do-
(what if you do!?)
Who will be there
By your side on the bus to forever?